Be A Do-Gooder Not An I-Shoulda~

Have you ever felt God ask you to do something and you didn't act on it, later regretting it?

Some people say it's your gut instinct or mother's intuition, but I believe God talks to us and moves on us to do certain things...most of the time it is to see if we will listen and obey.

  

We may question what he asks us to do, because it doesn't always make sense "to us." I have learned to follow thru, even though it sounds crazy, when I feel embarrassed, confused or scared...If we put our best foot forward for Him, God will take control, He will help us and protect us.

I have a story to tell that I'm not proud of, this happened to me several years ago. I was ashamed, broken hearted and had asked God to forgive me over and over, finally feeling peace about it, I have learned my lesson to go where He leads me... no matter what!

To be a Do-Gooder not an I Shoulda. 

I was working in town (Safford) and had to be at work at 8:00 a.m. One morning on my way in, I seen a man and a woman walking into town below Jenson Hill. God impressed on me to pick them up and give them a ride to where ever they needed to go. I said "Lord, I'm on my way into work, I'll be late if I stop for them and plus I have my children in the car, I don't feel it is safe!"

I went on my merry way...

The following morning I seen the same two people walking, God impressed on me again, and once more I had an excuse for not picking them up. I went to work with a nagging feeling in the pit of my stomach...later overcoming it by excuses I kept feeding myself.

The third morning on my way to work...yes, the same two people were walking into town and again God impressed on me to stop for them.

I had told myself over and over in my mind..."I had always been taught not pick up hitch hikers without a man in the vehicle. I had remember stories of people being kidnapped, murdered and raped because they were kind enough to stop, and the people looked nice enough, harmless!" I made myself feel better with excuses...logic.

But God isn't about Logic, He is a miracle working God, He works in ways we cannot fathom.

The weekend came and went. I was glad really, I hadn't given those two people to much thought...until I opened our local paper the following Sunday. I will NEVER forget it...The headline read...

Pedestrian hit crossing street, killed!

My stomach began to churn before I had a chance to even look at the picture...I had already knew...

I read the story again and again. She had been crossing the street at Jenson Hill during dusk and was not wearing the brightest of clothes...she was struck, the car barely missing her husband, killing her instantly!

I stared at the picture, it seemed for hours, crying asking God to forgive me.

I could have told them about Him...all the while thinking, "I shoulda" picked them up.

I could have been their only life line to Him...

"I shoulda" picked them up.

Their way to salvation..."I shoulda" picked them up!

I was distraught...I wept and prayed for days and weeks still trying to make sense of what happened. I was so sorry, I could of been the one to tell them how good God is. I told God over and over that I would never forsake His tugging if He would only take this guilt away from me and give me peace once again.

Still to this day I feel a pain when God impresses on me to talk to someone I am not truly comfortable with...I am grateful, because it is my reminder. I want to do what God will have me to do, He has a purpose, even if it seems out of the ordinary or scary.

I know He is in control and that He will protect me in every situation.

~Shelly'e