My Testimony~

Just a Small Part of My Personal Testimony...

When we moved to Sierra Vista (2005)...I Did Not want to move!! Frank had recently been laid-off, and his first job offer was there.

I questioned God "WHY", why couldn't He just open a job for Frank and let us stay in Safford?

I loved my hometown and was very comfortable.

So I challenged God, do you ever do that?

I said alright God, you want me in Sierra Vista, then you help us find a house that has enough room so I can home school the kiddos!

It just so happened Frankie's new employer had connections with Remax realtors. He phoned us saying they would gladly help us get moved over. They had picked out several house for us to look at, even going as far to say we could use their moving van!

We found our house in one day and it had an extra room added on for our classroom...nice, I thought...yay, great, o.k!

God maybe this wasn't you and I'm going to give you another chance to prove it!!

Anyone else out there ever do this? I hope I'm not alone!

So here I go...God, my mom and dad are sick, who is going to take care of them? I know they have friends, but they need some one closer to them that knows their everyday needs.

Well, my brother and his family quickly moved back to Safford from Tucson, and they happened to move into a mobile home a street over from my parents, go- figure!!! Nice, alright God, I get your drift...kind of.

What about the church, I'm sure we won't like it...I've heard their all CRAZY!! (One of the BEST Church's by the way. I found some amazing, life long friends there!)

So I continue...I don't know anyone!!

In fact we don't know a single soul in this rotten town...my attitude was at it's Best!

My attitude began rubbing off on my family. I know, nice role model for my children.

So I said, I'll show Him for moving us away. We began traveling back and forth from Sierra Vista to Safford almost every weekend...like we had the money to do it...we happened to find it somewhere!

As time passed and we began to settle more and ran out of money to "Run" every weekend, I began to question God about the promises that were given to my husband through his job.

Why aren't things working out...income, a company truck , his hours? I was so miserable and tired!

I think He knew I was done fighting Him. God told me in a rather loud voice one Sunday night during church, that we were not there for my husbands job or any other reason except for our SALVATION!!!

At that very moment...I felt horrible! I asked God to forgive my bad attitude, and help me adjust. I began to weep, feeling ashamed that I had made our transition so hard on myself and family.

I later realized what a Brat I had been this whole time, how ungrateful to God for all He had done for my family. All the prayers He had so graciously answered for me time and time again.

You want to know what God later told me...I had "FEAR"! Fear of serving Him on my own, fear of leaning on Him fully...that's why I had fought so hard! I was afraid.

You see, since I was 5, I have been attending the same church in Safford and with most of my family...dad, mom, brothers, aunts, uncles, grandparents on both sides of the family, cousins and of course friends I had grown-up with.

So now, being 33 and moving away from everything I knew, even as an adult was scary and uneasy.

(As you can see I don't deal with change very well).

I thought that was the end of the revelation for me, but God gave me more. I was leaning on my family too much for spiritual things, such as advice and answers I should have been praying about and waiting for Him to answer!

Since I  became satisfied with being in Sierra Vista, God began to move within us and change us...We grew so much, and received so many blessings.

Yes, we had our trials, but God was molding us and creating a wonderful masterpiece. I know that now. 

There will be times in the future when he has to reshape us once again. I am just clay in His hands...hoping to become something beautiful in His sight.

I'm forever glad He loves me enough to not throw me away~

I am so unworthy of His blessings and His love!!

Have a great day,

~Shelly'e